what the feeling i have after read my pervious blog..

oh no..

many sadness for my previous day..

alots blogs i write for him..

i can feel that i love him so much last time..

its good memory..

i keep think of the memory while i read my blogs..

hehe feeling stupiak~!

oh ya.. also keep mention about my job..

erm.. i think this 2 bad things that make me suffer always >.<

now.. i still thinking of him again

but that feeling is..........

i dont know how to describe about it

not i still love him or miss him

but he really give me alots memories that make me unable to forget him..

i m not sure that he still keep read my blog or not..

if he still read my blog, i wish to tell him

to be a better man =)

ermm...

now i start to "fan" about money loh..

i feel that i dont have enough money to spend.. and i really wan to save money for my future le >.<

actually i have plan to work as part time promoter or waitress on weekend..
but i dont know why i still dint take action yet..

1st of all, i worry for my full time job.. i always scare i have to work OT on weekend..
but that fucking company dint give OT, i only claim few OT sometime only!! wtf..

sometime feel want to change job again..

all are politic problems..
really sick of it..

actually i m not dislike my job, quite ok for my job actually..
just sometime they give me many, too many jobs untill i m tough for it..

as i know, this job can give me alots skill and knowledge.. learn many things.. so i plan that i can work at least one year if i still can tahan loh..

another things...
i still thinking or considering about dancing..
should i go back to find my dancing teacher? or to learn part time teacher also?
or another choice..

i have one friend is dancer one..
always go for performance.. seem like very fun
i love dancing so much seriously..

but time and certain situation make me unable to do so..

one : no enough money support me
second : my full time job make me scare that i need to work OT anytime..
third : no time because working ..

haih.. if i go to be dancer..without few money.. i also cannot survive ah..

i need more time to plan and think about it..

suddenly feel that now is the time for me to do somethings for my ownself and future..

but what i need to do now? haih...

say easy and hard to do >.<

nowever, i already dint always daydream about find a rich bf feed me forever and get marry as early as i can..

i know i m not a lucky or Hang fuk girl..
always see my friends have a good bf to feed them and nonid to worry of money..
or get marry soon and be a xiu lai lai

all are my wishes in my mind always..>.<
its wont happen on me loh haha

i know something..

that is when i hunger to get it, it does not deserved to me always..

i m used to it slowly already for few month ago..

start to stop to think of stupiak dream hehe

but i still satisfy for my current life..

because i still can get happiness in my life..

"我不是不好命 ,只是别人比我更好命罢了 !!"
可以羡慕, 不用去计较 ...
不然 真是 "人比人,气死人"