enjoyable..

this 3 days, i m very enjoy my day..
shopping, eating, have fun with my all dear buddies..
i m so happy for spending my money and never feel regret for it..

but tomorrow i need to face my job again
i dont know whether its suffer or not
i dont dare to think about it
just wish i can do my best for it..

i hope everything can going smoothly..
hope tomorrow is great day to me as my friends said..=)

my decision is right=)

finally.. my decision is right....

although i have bit down for it, but i can see the fact that i need to face now..

i am awake now.. time for me to let it go Go~ GO~ Go away~

you guys are right..

its not belong to me and not enough sincere & love for me..

i should give up early from beginning..

i give up now and forever..

back to my real life..

and...


my heart already was stolen by someone... =)
i am also bad girl =P

Nobody will understand me..

there is nobody understand me...
i very down... its useless for me to worry of..
everytime you guys scold me, say me, push me hard, force me tightly..
i never say anythings..
now stilll dare to say me again and complaint me again..
i also never say anythings just keep quiet..
i dint say anythings does not mean you guy are right..
just i feel whatever i done, u guys never appreciate me one..
so what should i shoot you guys back?
no matter what i do is right or wrong, you guys can said me again with your mood..
good mood then joke around with me, if moody just ask me shut up..
or complaint me again..
hahahahaha...
i m so silly....
when you guys disturbing me when i busy my job.. i never say anythings..
now i just talk with you guys only, you guys can ask me shut up and ignore me..
izit call " work as family?"

you are leader, so what?
leader dai sai ar?
if you feel unhappy with my work and attitudes
just talk with me lah.. why ask other people talk wtih me?
its call responsible leader mah?
you like to work hard without OT claims
its your business le..
you like to stay back.. does not mean i also like to do same with you ok?
i just work as admin in this eng department, why keep pushing me do this do that..
many things in my hand already still want me to do more..
why dont hire people to work again?
who's fault now?

i hate work with those always show his or her blackface..
please dont work with your emotional..
its so irritating..
you dont talk to me and ignore me, i already dint disturb you
but can you dont disturb me when i m busy?

please la think twice about yourself before saying people..

i hate a person who like report to boss and leader..

i admit i m not good in handling tender.. thts y i go to find other help me..
why?
cause you guys keep busy or ignore me..

what can i do?

sure find other teach me then..

at the end, you guys say me cant work indepedently..
laughing of me..
haih....

i never report to anyone what are you doing in office..

i be silly again.. cause need work ask family

all bull shit.................

jst now go to watch funny mv alone..

its really funny..

of caurse i sure laugh but its fake..

mind still empty.. for how to do and face those people in office..

i dont want to talk with them anymore except work.. no others

feel so down and lonely..

go movie alone really lonely..
its my first time

buy regular combo popcorn and a coca cola

eating alone

watching alone

driving alone

all by myself...

lolx.. funny lah =)

i dont want share anythings with friends anymore lah..
they not willing to listen you..
even call them
no one can answer you...

i better used to be alone..
until oneday i also die alone=)

i am so useless person!!!!

so pressure for current work =(

haih... why want like that leh?

i really try my best liao..

first time handle project and b leader.. its great opportunity.. but i dont really like to do..

my knowledge for engineering job is ZERO... i m trying to learn it..

of course its not easy..

from zero basic start to learn it its very suffer and very hard...

now i want to say that,

its too many job i need to do...

at the same time i need to learn many things..

regarding to tender, i just do ducting for once, do piping for once...

plus.. diff tender have diff methods

this time tender, i m not really understand the drawing for it..

i need ask ppl if i m not sure about it..

but people seems like unwilling to help me, what can i do le? just eat myself loh..

since i start feel don't hv mood and unhappy then go home early.. go relax

tomorrow only continue my job with new mood again..

but before i leave office..

someone said " if any problems for tender or cannot finish, i need responsible for it"

yes i am..
i should responsible for it because i m leader..
but not enough staffs and last mins ask me handle some one's job.. sure feel unhappy lah..
if someone cannot do it, should tell me early.. or we can cooperate.. each do 1 part right? then don't need feel so rush and panic..
but someone said she or he can do it.. its easy only.. then i sure relieve about it after he or she said..

now i think i do all loh.. add one job again
uhh~ be tolerance..

its pressure i still can accept.. but i dont want OT always without no OT claims..
i admit that no money support.. i cannot work hard..
i don't know whether its bad thinking of or what..

everyone wish to earn more money..
me too..

but i work hard without no OT claim..
its worth?
just worth for me learn more knowledge only..

i don't think that i can earn more money in this engineering field..

current company finance not so good...

plus no OT claims..

how i do hard, my salary also cannot increase so much lah..

should i continue or leave?

i need time to think about it..

long time dint update my blog already...

aiya long time dint update my blog le.. hehe

today is saturday, also is raining day oh..

time for good to sleep well =P

but i cannot sleep.. maybe i sleep over 8 hours hehe

i still sick.. still cough sometime.. and my voice become so sexy now =P

h1n1?

i very scare about it.. cause i dont want to leave my world so early..

i havent marry yet

i havent get a cute baby

alots things i havent do yet...

i will take care myself very well one...

later go to take dinner with daddy.. western food.. hehe

happy.. cause my favourite =P

ok stop here.. cause dont know what to write =P