I feel great and glad..
But i also have another feelings..
Weird, Curious and shadowy.
Cause i was being hurt before..
Cry..Sad..Mad.. Guilty..Suffer all the pass time..
I dont know how long i keep this bad emotion..
i jst know i need long time to handle my emotion and face the problems..
i really do treat u as my close friend...
even both of us dint talk to each other..
But i dont know i still feel scare and shadowy..
although now i already open mind and put down anythings..
suddenly you pop out in front of me..
i feel unsecure..
as i scare that once i close with you.. i really will treat u sincerely..
if one day u ignore me.. i dont know what is my respond..
maybe get hurt or maybe no feel..
if you have read my blog, pls tel me true for above i mentioned.
cause i know myself very well, i cannot control myself.. always put all sincere and heart..
sud get ignore without any reason..
will be fucking crazy i guess..
actually i wish this time you talk to me while ur relationship is good..
not talk to me and close with me when ur relationship is worst..
i worry of something happen..
actually last few weeks i jst used to it.. and open mind until i almost forget our memories..
i admit that i really forget it..
its not important to me..
cause i really fine..
forget when we argue
forget what we did
forget alots..
now recall.. only few pictures appear in my mind..
Sorry..
so surprise that u will notice my things and blogs..
really surprise..
i thought you are cruel to me..
cause keep ignore me..
but i still believe that you are good person since when i know you..
Sometime not just i dont want to greet you and smile..
just i scare of you will ignore or boycott me when i see u..
but you make me changed already..
haih..
but i prefer you will talk to your gf that we are friend now..
cause i really dun want to hv second time to happen with previous case..
its not good..
hope you can tel me honestly when you try to ignore me or what
i m ok.. at least i know the reason and i will know how to do..
actually i do miss this kind of friend.. like u.. i dun want to lose this friend like u as well^^
Hope everything can be greater~
^^
