Tuesday, December 14, 2010

what a surprise to me

Thank you that you talk to me and be close friend with me.

I feel great and glad..

But i also have another feelings..

Weird, Curious and shadowy.

Cause i was being hurt before..

Cry..Sad..Mad.. Guilty..Suffer all the pass time..

I dont know how long i keep this bad emotion..

i jst know i need long time to handle my emotion and face the problems..

i really do treat u as my close friend...

even both of us dint talk to each other..

But i dont know i still feel scare and shadowy..

although now i already open mind and put down anythings..

suddenly you pop out in front of me..

i feel unsecure..

as i scare that once i close with you.. i really will treat u sincerely..
if one day u ignore me.. i dont know what is my respond..
maybe get hurt or maybe no feel..
if you have read my blog, pls tel me true for above i mentioned.

cause i know myself very well, i cannot control myself.. always put all sincere and heart..
sud get ignore without any reason..
will be fucking crazy i guess..

actually i wish this time you talk to me while ur relationship is good..
not talk to me and close with me when ur relationship is worst..
i worry of something happen..

actually last few weeks i jst used to it.. and open mind until i almost forget our memories..
i admit that i really forget it..
its not important to me..
cause i really fine..

forget when we argue
forget what we did
forget alots..

now recall.. only few pictures appear in my mind..
Sorry..

so surprise that u will notice my things and blogs..
really surprise..

i thought you are cruel to me..
cause keep ignore me..
but i still believe that you are good person since when i know you..

Sometime not just i dont want to greet you and smile..
just i scare of you will ignore or boycott me when i see u..

but you make me changed already..
haih..

but i prefer you will talk to your gf that we are friend now..
cause i really dun want to hv second time to happen with previous case..
its not good..

hope you can tel me honestly when you try to ignore me or what
i m ok.. at least i know the reason and i will know how to do..

actually i do miss this kind of friend.. like u.. i dun want to lose this friend like u as well^^

Hope everything can be greater~

^^


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