There are some things that i can live without!

Anything you need, must have or cant do without has dominion over you and your life.
you are a slave of sorts. i am not talking about here about food, clothing and shelter!
i m talking about anything or anyone, from your mother to your job, that you feel you must have, must help or cannot walk away from for one reason or another. i am talking about, the gamut from food to sex, people to pets, shoes to butter on both sides of your bread. if god didn't put it in you, but you believe you cannot live without it, you are in a lot of trouble!
all too often, we turn our lives over to things and people, believing that they are essential to our survival.
how does it happened?
why do we become enslaved?
why does it happened?
why do we turn our lives and our power over to things and people?
well, its trick!
it is the trick of fear!

fear will do anything, use anyone, to throw you off track, keep you off base and move you in the wrong direction. fear is very well aware that as long as you believe there is something you cannot do without, you have an excuse not to do the things you must! fear also knows that as long as you have an excuse for not doing, fear has something to do! fear will keep you running. fear will tie you down, beat you up and leave you gasping for air!
FEAR is the master trickster! it will make you responsible to others!
FEAR is the very thing that prevent you from letting go of everything and everyone esle.

until now, you may not have been aware of all of the things and people you hold on to in response to fear.
just for now, accept that you are afraid to let go!
make a list of all the things you believe you NEED.
read the list and identify all the excuse you give yourself for holding on. then mentally and emotionally, let go.

today, i am devoted to eliminating all fear-based reasons, excuses and habits!

my opinions are that i live happily in my life as well than others and i will don't to be fear for anythings in my life anymore.

Miss Him

don't know why i suddenly thinking of him again tonight..
he is the one i love most in my life but.......
sigh~
first time put this picture on my blog..
hehe
it maybe a memory in my mind=)

I miss that time we get fun last time..

i m fine now.. don't worry it
just like to share something on my blog only
i wont desperate for it anymore.
it is game over already lah ...




凌晨3点15分 7-11的灯
把这世界孤单的人
一个个照得失了魂
你留在唇边的吻
透着12月的冷
MARRY CHRISTMAS 红色玫瑰
探出头笑我太愚蠢
我不问昨天爱多深
我不问眼泪有多冷
所谓牺牲
秒秒分分
都是折磨人的缘份
我不问明天有多疼
我不问黑夜有多冷
所谓终点
只是思念
想不到我只能听一句再见

he is not the one that i want to..

i think he is not suitable for me ^^

he maybe belong to others ^^

i m not his target...maybe ^^

i couldn't find a real man~

i dont want a boyfriend, i need a real man.

he?
its too far

he?
still young

he?
too bad

he?
ugly la..

he?
he is the best but... i m sorry for him

he?
i dont know, i m still confuse and wonder him

hehe.....

who is he?
has many he+s....

XP

对我来说是....

6年的恋爱和感情，对你来说是怎样呢？
基本上对我来说是很好呀，不错吧...
可是我又再想一想...
它不是这样的...
人家说看起来象老夫老妻...因为彼此都知道，了解对方...
可是对我说是好象变成兄妹感情了...
妹妹有事的时候，就会找哥哥了
哥哥就会马上帮妹妹解决，安慰妹妹，好好疼妹妹的那种感觉...
当妹妹没事，就不找哥哥了，她玩她的，哥哥就忙他的....
从一开始的甜蜜感情变成了兄妹感情..好无奈

多年的恋爱也会有分手的一天..

失去了，才会懂得珍惜....


我呢？
呵呵...
我好象喜欢他了...
我开始想他了...
^_^

last email to him and me

To JD

please control ur emotion
dont try to hurt other
its cannot attract me to love you so much..
i think all my fault that to make u become insane person
my heart is so pain (tear dropping again)


You told me
"I just hope to do something for u
I hope what i did today can make u feel better
I just want u to be happy and smile again
As long as u are happy, I will be happy as well"

ur words are fooling me =)
anyhow,
it maybe true "she dont belong to me anymore, i missed it"
then i give you my opinion that you are wasting each other chances, times, keep miss all our fate.
i will slowly dissappear in front of you,
cause i also feel unhappy to meet you again now.
i hope other girl can replace me in your heart, get a lover sooner, have good future.
dont find a girl like me always hurt you if you think that i m..


yuko
heart broken


always think that you will change , change a better man
but at the end, i m the one think too much already..
well, its ok
times can erase all the "memory" in my mind asap..
what i want? what i dream? what i desparate?
all wont be happen in now and future FOREVER..

still left 30% of love, i think it is easy to dissappear soon

do not feel hurt, sad and cry anymore for someone that dont know how to appreciate me last time, as long as i know somethings from him.

KISSgoodBYE~

because of him, i know that i still love my Darling so much..

我聽見有人叫你寶貝(nice song)

你問我為什么 不再給你安慰
在寒風中漫步有家不回好幾天不見面也無所謂
你問我為什么 把你的信退回又把照片撕碎毫不后悔
你問我為了什么 開始喝酒而且每次都喝醉
不要說我做得不對
不要說你永遠不會
因為我在無意間聽見有人叫你寶貝
不要說這是個誤會
請不要在我面前流淚
因為我明明聽見有人叫你寶貝
你讓他叫你 寶貝

this song quite nice and sadness..
sob sob...

DONT GO AWAY (SONG) for someone

Looking through your eyes
there’s nothing to hide
And you’re no longer mine
How could I survive when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high?
Can’t stop the tears from fallin’
We used to be so fine
when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you
My heart is breakin'
Don’t Don’t Go Away
Baby, don’t you know, I miss you so
Don’t Don’t Go Away
I’ve never been on my own before
Wooh…. Oh….
Can’t you hear me just take me with you
So don’t don’t go away
Don’t Don’t Go Away
Baby, don’t you know, I miss you so
Don’t Don’t Go Away
I’ve never been on my own before
So won’t you feel my heartbeat once more

sick >.<

lastnight, i was sick..
suddenly stomach feels uncomfortable..
cannot sleep well..
and vomit suddenly also
while vomit.. not only vomit out from mouth, also out from my nose..
its so painful..
lastnight i dint eat so much for my dinner.
cause i dont have appetite
i just keep drink water and some soft drinks..
what i vomit out?
water =.=
my eye also trun to red and some tears around my eyes..
i think its too suffer at that moment.
after i go to take medicine
my family told me
maybe its gastric...
i dont think so..
but i dint think too much, jst clean up my floor and sleep again..
recently, i really seldom eat so much..
not like me..
i always eat alots when i m hungry last time.
why?
what happen on me?
its too pressure?
i also dont know..
hope i can eat more XD

无言

我真的没话说..
我不知道到底他在做什么..
我想两人在一起应该跟彼此聊心事，商量及解决问题..
我不知道怎样跟他沟通好..
问题还是存在..
我们说好去云顶..
如果不能去的话，至少跟我说..
可是没有，他没说什么..
我等了他很久...
我在等他给我答案..
sms他，他也没回我..
让我担心又难过...
我虽然没哭，心却冷了...
我等他告诉我他发生什么事..
他没说什么
说我讨厌他..
我怎么讨厌他？我爱他都来不及了..那会讨厌他？
我很想讨厌他呀，我真的想讨厌他..
可是我做不到..
他几乎不理我了..
他说我生气他..
我没有反而我原谅他了
工作的确是忙，可是不用忙到不能聊几小时麻...
我多忙都会跟他聊天..
为什么他不能？
他真的爱我吗？
连见我的机会也没有..
我还能做什么？
等待？
我等很久了...
我傻了吗？
呵呵
为什么他要这样对我?
我快要趁不下去了..
我只需要他偶尔找我下，陪陪我..
他说好，可是没作到
有时说不要逼他..
呵呵..好笑吧..不然叫别人来陪我..
我要的是他不是别人..
我很想知道他发生什么事，作什么..
他又不说..好没有安全感喔..
我对这感情开始没信心了...
我去找他很多次了，可是我没看他的出现...白等整天了...
我承认我脾气不好，爱发脾气..
可是他不开心有时还会生气我..
我....真的很难过...
好想有人骂醒我
我每天用好方面去想他的好..
可是每次都掉眼泪..
爱一个人如此不容易
爱一个人也好难
爱得苦.....

my viva coming soon^^

hehe
i will get new car soon
i can drive anywhere by myself..
nonid always fetched by my family or friends..
yeah...
black viva..
i hunger to get you...
i will love you so much
take care of you so much
i can fly anywhere i want..
so happy!!!!
hahaha.......

无奈

我真的无奈了..
命中注定..
好不容易的等待着他,他却跟你说他要走了..
我不知道我该说些什么..
我知道我不会阻止你做什么，但我逼你做你却不喜欢..
我不知道怎么办叻..
我知道我很down...
我不舍得
我想哭哦，可是哭不出..
心痛不得
苦笑不得...
我...
我还是一个人...
是结束了吗？
我想应该是了吧..

p/s: 他说 如果找到一个更好的，就去吧..他祝福我...
我听了我的心很伤....

我不想

我不想吵架啦...
一点点小事也生气我，讲我...
每次都怀疑我...
我真的不想吵架！！！！
我真的不想...
本来是开心的，到最后也一样伤心...
我都不要求你做些什么，我就不想天天都吵架，会伤感情的...
不喜欢的话，就不理我，吵架了也没要哄回我..喜欢的话，就甜言密语..
一句道歉送给我..
我要的不是道歉..
每次吵架了就off掉..不理我
让我又伤又气对着电脑 象傻人..
觉得自己好傻喔...
我真的不要这样子啦...
我真的跟他沟通不来..
我说了好多次了
他都听不懂我的心情...
我真的不开心..
讨厌他!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bygone be bygone

终于感情结束了，我也该专心工作了，不再迷糊了，该有足够的睡眠了吧..
很想把一切做好，打好我的事业! 加油..
我还矛盾这份工到底适不适合我， 我都会再次努力做好..
我会尽力去做..
不管这条路多难走，我会想办法去渡过难关的..
我会找到我自己想要的事业的
虽然我还没有足够的经年，但我会好好地做下去...直到我有能干的一天..我就会逃出这条路..
我不会再钻牛角尖了...
工作是这样的，我也应该承面对它,不在逃避...我不要在意别人对我的看法..
我会做的更好的
我会幔幔的学习我该学的东西..
我也不会感到害怕了，要勇敢面对...
向前冲！
yuko 加油喔..=)

i love you

i love you
but i cannot accept a certain things happen on you
i feel guilty
i feel sad
i feel i m bad
i m not qualify to love you anymore.
you ask me that " will you accept me?"
i really do love you but i cannot accept it.
i m bad right?
i also hate myself
i m regret to do sthg bad on you until u become like tht..
really sorry
i really love you but myself really cant accept it
maybe need take some times to accept it
i dont know how to describe my feeling now
when you really love someone, but you yourself canot or unable to accept it
its very trouble and suffer
weird...
very confuse
sigh i really dont know what i want also
i never look down you
i just want make u become strong or motivate you
at the end, u look like misunds my meaning..
really sorry..

are we end?

from last few days, i start to think of many things he still hide from me.
izit i think too much or its true?
recently, we almost always argue.
i still wonder whether we still suit to each other or ..
i dont like to be like that.
many things that we are not match sometime.
i already force myself to do something that i dislike.
actually, its not "xing fu" to me..
i m sad about it.
when i m sad, i will listen to "missing you"
missing you 拋去愛 漸漸模糊的期待 難道我就這樣痛撤心扉 是自己活該
missing you every night 連星海也嘲笑我活該

guy : are we end?
girl : i dont know
guy : ok
girl suddenly laugh " hahahahaha............."
she is so silly...

i m torturing myself

someone kill me please..
i m suffer always
what can i do only make myself happy?
always hurt by people
i m so stupid
i really tired of it
i did so much equal to zero..
i wish have some one to make me really happy always
i really wish it
i hate his way to talk with me but its make me to think another who how to make me always happy when i m down.
did i do wrong decision already?
i dont know what i talking about
i dont know what i want already
really FAN!!!!

HURT - I hate YOU

I m sad ar..............................
really like foolsih ar.......................................
totally like stupid...................................................
(crying)
i hate him so much now
he still keep cheat me and play me again and again
at the end, i m the one get hurt too deep...
sigh~
cry also useless..
how i did for him
he never unds my heart and never appreciate me
really torturing myself
i really want to give up this time
if still continue like that
i will going to crazy soon..
i really hate him now..
my heart really broken and pain..
breathless
i really stupid and idoit..
wanna slap myself
i hate him
i really hate him!!!!
i dont want to love him anymore..
forget him!

its my love

finally, i get what i want..
i m happy and touch now..
i m satisfied now
its enough for me..
that is my love..
XIN FU LE

i really happy right now..
i dont know how to say now
i dont know how to do now
just feel silly and happy now..
hahaha

i love you
muakss

too tired already

today i m very tired............
i cannot pay attention in training class tonight
but i m read comic during training
haha...

well, i m keep busy for my work really busy
time really not enough for me..
i need work over 5pm already now >.<
but always get scold by daddy
always work too late and let he waiting for me long time >.<
really tired le

No time for relax now...
but every section, mins, hours i also will think of him
once i m free, my mind and heart start to think of him and miss him
where is him now?
really gone? or he also give up me?
or he mad at me and hate me 4va?
or what?
i dont know
i just know he misunds me already from that time..
but i also never want to explain to him
just let it go..
now it maybe go.. but my heart really canot let him go..
miss him now and think of him now
what he doing?
i really wan to know where is him?
anyone can tell me
where is him?
i need him..
i want find him..
i really do love him so much

why my blog start to mention him again and again?
i realize that i really fall in love with him seriously..
i love him more than myself..
its my love..

i still miss him II

after woke up, i going to living room watch tv and read newspaper..
then i feel boring while watch tv, i go to ask my sister
intro some books for me
she intro comic for me..
haha
well, i m reading comic..
erm.. i love its love story
i wish i m that girl in the story
so sweet and "xin fu"
its actor also handsome...
that time i just only imagine him..
only he look like comic actor.. as my type..
only i thinking of him
only imagine him together with me
he always in my mind...
his soul also stay in my mind..
i still love him...
how?
haha
GG already..