i m torturing myself

someone kill me please..
i m suffer always
what can i do only make myself happy?
always hurt by people
i m so stupid
i really tired of it
i did so much equal to zero..
i wish have some one to make me really happy always
i really wish it
i hate his way to talk with me but its make me to think another who how to make me always happy when i m down.
did i do wrong decision already?
i dont know what i talking about
i dont know what i want already
really FAN!!!!