what a surprise to me

Thank you that you talk to me and be close friend with me.

I feel great and glad..

But i also have another feelings..

Weird, Curious and shadowy.

Cause i was being hurt before..

Cry..Sad..Mad.. Guilty..Suffer all the pass time..

I dont know how long i keep this bad emotion..

i jst know i need long time to handle my emotion and face the problems..

i really do treat u as my close friend...

even both of us dint talk to each other..

But i dont know i still feel scare and shadowy..

although now i already open mind and put down anythings..

suddenly you pop out in front of me..

i feel unsecure..

as i scare that once i close with you.. i really will treat u sincerely..

if one day u ignore me.. i dont know what is my respond..

maybe get hurt or maybe no feel..

if you have read my blog, pls tel me true for above i mentioned.

cause i know myself very well, i cannot control myself.. always put all sincere and heart..

sud get ignore without any reason..

will be fucking crazy i guess..

actually i wish this time you talk to me while ur relationship is good..

not talk to me and close with me when ur relationship is worst..

i worry of something happen..

actually last few weeks i jst used to it.. and open mind until i almost forget our memories..

i admit that i really forget it..

its not important to me..

cause i really fine..

forget when we argue

forget what we did

forget alots..

now recall.. only few pictures appear in my mind..

Sorry..

so surprise that u will notice my things and blogs..

really surprise..

i thought you are cruel to me..

cause keep ignore me..

but i still believe that you are good person since when i know you..

Sometime not just i dont want to greet you and smile..

just i scare of you will ignore or boycott me when i see u..

but you make me changed already..

haih..

but i prefer you will talk to your gf that we are friend now..

cause i really dun want to hv second time to happen with previous case..

its not good..

hope you can tel me honestly when you try to ignore me or what

i m ok.. at least i know the reason and i will know how to do..

actually i do miss this kind of friend.. like u.. i dun want to lose this friend like u as well^^

Hope everything can be greater~

^^