heahache =(

yesterday and today.. i was headache leh.. dont know why..
not enough sleep? erm i hv sleep more than 7 hours wor...
yesterday i m busy with my job.. from morning until evening.. nonstop run up and down.. tired..
i m so weak oh.. easy get tired.. =(
plus i m less drink water also.. =(
haih.. stupiak.. =X

today need to sleep early la.. or not tml cannot work again if still headache =X

goodnight loh =)

take care for my health!

from last week, i already do sit up, put my leg up and other exercise everynight before sleep..

wow.. today do 100 times sit up.. really tired..

erm i dont know why i suddenly will do exercise..

i think i also need to do thg for my heathly.. and get a good figure for my ownself..
erm.. like that only can make me feel more confidence for myself =)

beside do exercise, i also start go to swimming.. 3 times per week..
i wish to jogging but i m lazy haha =X
i prefer swimming maybe its my hobby XD..

so i bought swimwear is right choice! hehe no matter its expensive..
last time i bought it i still worry about i dint go swimming or just buy for fun..

haha finally i got use it.. =P

i also seldom drink coffee in office already.. after i was sick last few months..

last time i really addicted to coffee 1.. every morning sure make a cup coffee..

now? just drink hot milo and 1 piece of bread for my breakfast only.. hehe

now i m thinking of.. that why.. or i also dont know why i suddenly want do this do that..
>.<

oh ya my next target is buy iphone!!
i hunger to it long time already.. hehe...

now still do research and find info for buy iphone..

why i want it?
because i think i need it loh
when i go outside i can bring it for on9, facebook, find friends chitchat hehe..
nonid bring what laptop go anyplace.. right?
plus my laptop already old la... i think i use it over 3 years d..
wanna rosak jor!~~~

now also start to save money bit by bit for buy new desktop.. and for small trip..

i plan to go whole malaysia trip 1st.. after few years maybe i hv earn more money only go oversea for travel..

this is all my planning loh..
i aldo dont know why i will think like that le.. =X

of cause i will continue to shop SHOP SHOP!!
its my hobby.. hehe

i wish i only shop more during sales la..

but i also allow myself to shop if i wiling to shop..

see!! financial problems!!

want this want that.. how to find more money?

thts y i still think about extra job loh..

i will discuss with him and give me more idea for it..

only he can encourage me XD..

actually i dont want only talk, but i really wish that i can do it also...
but i scare i cant make it..
really dont know what i want now le.. how?

now i only do what can i do slowly..
start to do from small wish 1st..

okla.. time to sleep la..
tomorrow have to work lolx.. bored!=X

what the feeling i have after read my pervious blog..

oh no..

many sadness for my previous day..

alots blogs i write for him..

i can feel that i love him so much last time..

its good memory..

i keep think of the memory while i read my blogs..

hehe feeling stupiak~!

oh ya.. also keep mention about my job..

erm.. i think this 2 bad things that make me suffer always >.<

now.. i still thinking of him again

but that feeling is..........

i dont know how to describe about it

not i still love him or miss him

but he really give me alots memories that make me unable to forget him..

i m not sure that he still keep read my blog or not..

if he still read my blog, i wish to tell him

to be a better man =)

ermm...

now i start to "fan" about money loh..

i feel that i dont have enough money to spend.. and i really wan to save money for my future le >.<

actually i have plan to work as part time promoter or waitress on weekend..
but i dont know why i still dint take action yet..

1st of all, i worry for my full time job.. i always scare i have to work OT on weekend..
but that fucking company dint give OT, i only claim few OT sometime only!! wtf..

sometime feel want to change job again..

all are politic problems..
really sick of it..

actually i m not dislike my job, quite ok for my job actually..
just sometime they give me many, too many jobs untill i m tough for it..

as i know, this job can give me alots skill and knowledge.. learn many things.. so i plan that i can work at least one year if i still can tahan loh..

another things...
i still thinking or considering about dancing..
should i go back to find my dancing teacher? or to learn part time teacher also?
or another choice..

i have one friend is dancer one..
always go for performance.. seem like very fun
i love dancing so much seriously..

but time and certain situation make me unable to do so..

one : no enough money support me
second : my full time job make me scare that i need to work OT anytime..
third : no time because working ..

haih.. if i go to be dancer..without few money.. i also cannot survive ah..

i need more time to plan and think about it..

suddenly feel that now is the time for me to do somethings for my ownself and future..

but what i need to do now? haih...

say easy and hard to do >.<

nowever, i already dint always daydream about find a rich bf feed me forever and get marry as early as i can..

i know i m not a lucky or Hang fuk girl..
always see my friends have a good bf to feed them and nonid to worry of money..
or get marry soon and be a xiu lai lai

all are my wishes in my mind always..>.<
its wont happen on me loh haha

i know something..

that is when i hunger to get it, it does not deserved to me always..

i m used to it slowly already for few month ago..

start to stop to think of stupiak dream hehe

but i still satisfy for my current life..

because i still can get happiness in my life..

"我不是不好命 ,只是别人比我更好命罢了 !!"
可以羡慕, 不用去计较 ...
不然 真是 "人比人,气死人"

我怎么了？

我到底怎么了？

我刚才因为太无聊去看我所有朋友的部落格。

我就看到他的。

当我看他的部落格，我不知不觉地掉眼泪。

原来在他的回忆是没有我的存在。

口口声声地说喜欢我，却没看到他的回忆有我。

干吗掉泪呀？傻傻的我=X

也许自己想太多了呵呵。。。

不想再掉任何眼泪了。。。

心会难过的。。

要习惯他的对待和冷落。。

其实我已经麻木了，没有什么感觉。。

只是偶尔会想想他。。。

我知道他是不会想跟我一起的，等他是浪费时间。。

还是当他是好朋友就好 呵呵

about him and him

can anyone tell me why?

why i will thinking of him again when i listen " no promises & Heartbeat (LeeHom)"

i dont know why.. and wonder that whether i still love him or not?

i have been long time dint contact him and talk to him..

why suddenly think of him and some memory of "us"

thinking of what we did for last time..

i was smile while thinking of those things..

pure feeling~

its true..

i listen to "heartbeat" from lee hom while driving just now, i still thinking about izit that i already found my true love and all are missed and gone in my life again..

i dont know what he doing and where is him now..

i hope he is fine..

but.. if he is good man without his bad attitude.. its so wonderful for me..

another guy..

this guy when i meet him, i feel like wanna to hunger to get marry with him XP~
but i dont know what he thinking of now.. but i still like him so much..
he like to escape my topic.. but i already try to stop it as he dont like to face it..

sometime, i will think that izit we choose other as our partner, then will He and I regret for dint choose each other or not?

seriously.. i dont like to do something make myself regret forever..

i always wish i will get him at the end.. but now seems like impossible..

sign~!

people will say i m think too much..

i just want to find an answer..

i dont like to waste my times..

i rather he told me that he has a gf.. then i will give up.. =]
seriously i dont like to waiting for someone i wish to have..

well, i dont know what i m waiting for in my love life..
i also dont have the mood for it..

i cant used to be alone now.. =(

wont give up..

i wont give up...

no matter how suffer i am.. i will take this experience at least 1 year!!!

then i think i can get more better job for my future =)

this path maybe difficult to do..

but i aways think..

i have learn alots at same time..

do purchasing job, telephone operator, admin job, engineering job and few project, negotiate with other supplier... etc..

after learn all.. i think it help me get more experience and get better job in future..

i need to be patient and tolerance now..

but i need do hard for my future...

haiyaya i dont want to think too much la..

hehe..